with time maybe this pain will fade...

Hey guys my name is Racquel and I am 21 years old. I'am Within the years that have followed high school, i grew to become severely depressed. So for the past 2 year things have gotten much worse. Due to countless rejections by friends and the love of my young life i couldn't handle the pain any longer so i found an outlet. I have been self harming for about a year now. I have been going to therapy and have been put on medication to control my emotions and my urges. while i do not take them on a regular basis, at times i just need to feel again without that bullshit tarp that is wrapped over everything. I use to be happy with myself and with my life. i loved the way i looked and who i was now i look in the mirror and despise the girl i see in the mirror. Along with depression and self harm i also have anxiety , dealing with these all at once is unbearable and it has come to the point where i cant take it anymore. I need help i am sick of living in fear or running into my past and regret that for what i have done. I hate that i disappoint people around me especially my family and thats all i seem to be doing. If anyone has experience in this i would love some help and i would love to help anyone who is willing to ask me anything. we need to hep each other when the ones beside us turn and walk away<3